Wednesday, January 5, 2011

My Second Bloggerversary!





JANUARY WALKING: EVENING PRAYER

shot and processed iPhone 3GS




JANUARY WALKING: OUT OF SIGNAL

shot and processed iPhone 3GS



On New Year's Day, we went for a stroll with a friend and became lost at the top of a rather cold, damp, Welsh hill. One session of Cognitive Behavioural Therapy isn't quite enough to get a severely anxious person through that kind of life-challenge without a considerable amount of panic, but as misty, evening darkness drew in around us, my thoughts turned to practical matters: would it be possible, I wondered, to fell a small tree with the edge of a Co-op loyalty card? Then we could construct a shelter. I wasn't so concerned about the cold for myself or my husband, but our friend does tend to moan a lot about the weather and I feared that at some point, during a night spent outdoors with him, we might loose the will to survive. I consoled myself with the thought that this was a very beautiful place in which to die of Hypothermia. My friend asked if I had the App that transforms the iPhone screen into a torchlight. Of course not! Why would I want that? Can I make pictures with it? Faced with the choice of saving my remaining phone battery power to make an SOS call or take more photographs, I chose the only logical course of action...I took more photographs...

Quite frankly, I haven't bounded into the new year full of vim and vigour, more like dragged myself, sluggishly, out of the old one, when I'd much rather have a nice long lie in. My conscience is grumbling: "it's 2011, the start of a new decade, that means you have to DO SOMETHING POSITIVE!" So, to show willing, I'm making lists...and I'm crossing things off...and I'm trying very hard not to mentally thrash myself if I haven't crossed EVERYTHING...or indeed, hardly anything, off the list, at the end of each day...let's see how long I can keep that up...

There's a lot that I want to accomplish over the next twelve months and now that I have a bright, shiny, new little garden studio to work in, what excuse can I possibly have? Well...the Panto Season may be coming to a close, but Mental Illness is like having a couple of Ugly Sisters permanently performing inside your head. They are not great company: Depression saps the imagination of its hopes and dreams. No sooner have you kicked her out the door than Anxiety comes knocking, nagging at you with countless reasons why hopes and dreams are bound to end in disaster. Before you know it, Depression has invited herself back in, put the kettle on and is eating her way through the chocolate HobNobs. Then there's The Cat...while we were away, just before Christmas and over the New Year, she had a little holiday at the vet's and so now I have a lot of making up to do. The Cat has an uncanny knack of knowing when I am just about to do something and at that precise moment, she desperately needs my lap and half an hour's reassurance that she is still the centre of my Universe. Whilst I'm in the midst of dealing with complex "nurturing issues", how can I possibly refuse?

Today marks my second bloggerversary. It's a cliche, I know, but it really does seem like only five minutes since I was writing my first bloggerversary post. Much has happened since then, but I have blogged about only a fraction of it. I've been away so from here for so long that this morning, I found it difficult to navigate my way around the dashboard and I've discovered an alarming number of half-composed postings in my drafts folder. However: I'm determined to complete this one, to thank visitors old and new for spending some time here and for your messages of support and encouragement over the past year. In the spirit of generosity that abounds in Blogland, I'm going to do the bloggerversary thing of offering a small gift as a token of my appreciation. Leave a message for me with this post and in about a week's time, I'll put everyone's name in a hat and pull one out. If your name is chosen, I'll send you a print of your choice from my Flickr Stream.

Wishing you all a very happy New Year!


18 comments:

MrCachet said...

Hey! I really like both of these, but if I had to choose - I choose the bottom one with what appears to me to be a flashlight beam illuminating a path - just for you.

And Happy Anniversary!

danielle said...

I hope you are doing better. I really appreciate your art and your efforts to post, even when it's an effort sometimes. I would love a print of yours! Sincerely, Danielle

Edgar said...

like Dainelle said I hope you are recovering well from the Flu. I also would love to win a print of yours. I have really enjoyed your photos over the past few months since discovering your work. Take care
Edgar

magicgardencymru said...

I have just discovered your blog (after you visited mine - fairylights?!) and I love your work - January Walking:out of signal is fabulous,haunting and true - I'm very happy that you visited my blog as now I have found yours - ah, isn't the blogosphere fab .. : )

Ann Somerset Miles said...

How I loved this post, so honest and so - well - a reflection of the here and now. I'm not sure what it is about the transition from 2010 to 2011, but we all seem to be lagging behind in some way. There's a story there, I am sure. And I just LOVE your iPhone photos - and that 18th century book of herbal remedies. Can it be another working day tomorrow? Yes!

La Dolce Vita said...

I see you found your way out of the forest and lived to not only tell about it but post the most splendid pieces ... so brave of you to post about your depression, sending you great love dear, and wishing you a bright and peaceful new year! happy blogoversary!! xox cat

deb said...

Im glad i found your artwork and then the blog! You are truly an inspiration and your honesty and down to earth style is very refreshing! We all have a hard time with the dark days and cold , I find sticking to anything difficult! January walking is gorgeous..not something I would have thought of! Thats what makes us special as individuals, because you did!

Diane Lou said...

These are just breathtaking! Such an artist and techie person you are!! ....as well, of course, about being tremendously honest, funny and engaging. I love your blog! Happy Bloggerversary!

Carol said...

Wonderful images...and taken while lost at nightfall! Loving our images.

calamityjane(t) said...

hi there! i just discovered your blog through artful blogging (flipped through it at the bookstore and your images were the ones that caught my eye!) i love what you do with the iPhone-- isn't it the most amazing concept to get your mind around? when i'm out walking i can download apps on the go and use them immediately. i love that. definitely looking forward to seeing the wonders you create with it in 2011!

Kelly M. said...

Evening Prayer is stunning, beautifully melancholy. New Year's is bittersweet, so many hopes, should-have-dones left behind. And to come? Dreams mixed with tremors of trepidation . . .

Seth said...

The best to you in 2011. I hope the new year brings you happiness and peace. Congrats on two years of posting. And absolutely add my name to the draw. Who wouldn't want a choice of your many amazing photographs!

Lani Gerity said...

I sure hope it's not to late to add my name as well! Blessing in the new year!

Carmen Beecher said...

I just discovered your blog, and I'm hooked. You are brilliant. I just got an iPhone, and can barely take a picture with it. I had no idea one could do the things you are doing. I'm mystified and intrigued...

deb said...

those images are incredible I am glad you didn't save the battery for an SOS call! And I am also glad that you are "back" I have missed your haunting,incredible images...

Barbara said...

...I took more photographs...

very good choice!

Thanks for the chance to win, but I don't know if I would qualify being I live across the pond. ?

sallyt said...

Nettie, you are fantastic. I would love to learn more iPhoneography from you. (how about an online class?) Your images are dreamy and vexing all at the same time -- just my cup of tea. I'll be trying to find more of you everywhere. Thanks for the tutorial in Digital Studio. I'll be posting what I did as a result on my blog, http://sallyt.typepad.com

Forever a fan,
sallyt

Lou Lou said...

I really love your work and understand about anxiety. It definately impacts creativity. Best-Lou Lou